i cant believe i have been a mom- doing mom things, diaper changes, feeding babies, cleaning bottles and toys, errands with two kids, walks to the library- for a year! this is my identity now, this is my job, its what i do. that thought still takes some getting used to. (ive mentioned to a few people, i was at a drs. office and they had the same HP4250 lazer jet printer that suffolk had and i got all emotional when i saw it. yes i even miss the printer!)
i think the most freeing thing about this year has been knowing that these girls arent really mine. keep reading. God gave them to me and dan to raise and show them what He is like. i really cant imagine not having Christ in and through all this. prayer gets me through night terrors, sleepless nights that turn into cranky days (for the girls and me), fevers, stresses trying to leave the house, screaming fits and worrying about bills. prayer has become more than a frantic search for peace, it has become a stream of thanks and comfort.
they are God's and he has begun a good work in them and will finish it to completion when Christ returns. all i need to do is be obedient, faithful and humble before God while i parent and he will correct and cover my mistakes and bless my successes. love God then love Dan and then love the girls.
i love my crazy ladies.
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